well, nothing in life is permanent..
i shld have realised that long time ago but it took me some time to realise it.
One day you will be wit sme1 thinking that he/she'll be der for the rest of ur life in bliss.
but den, time will come wen things have to come to a halt (death, or any circumstances like leaving for overseas stay, to another sch, quarrel etc). u will nvr know wat's gonna hpn tm.. it's so unpredictable...
therefore, enjoy ur time wit ur loved ones today cos tm may never come to let dem know how much u love & miss dem...
Strangely, tis frens whom u tot wld nvr tok or meet u again, wld return (of cos not the deceased ones)... but den, either it creates a stronger bonding or things wont be the same again and will be left as it is...
Yday, one of my sec sch mate sms'd me.. she's been smsing me lately... wen i was in sec sch, we were in the same dance grp...we ddnt share much interest together.. juz a bit of socialising etc... and when i left sch, i ddnt thought much abt her...
i met her coincidently last yr and we exchanged numbers & started smsing.. it ws strange how we weren't that close in sch & now we're smsing & toking like a long lost fren...
last nite, she smsd me saying she's holding her wedding reception & wanna meet up to pass me the card.
i juz wonder, how time has changed things...
alot more...
i had tis big fight wit one of my close buddy in sec sch cos of some very big misunderstanding...we used to be really close back at sch, sharing lots of our ups & downs (he wasn't my bf)...one fine day, cos of sme misunderstanding, we got very angry wit each other and never spoke again.. he apologised profusely, bt i didnt give in... after one year, we saw each other in temple, we spoke & now, we're back to being frens & closer... =))
Well, alot of incidence like this... but at the end of it, i realised, it creates a stronger bonding & oso makes u a stronger person.
Life is not about accommodating to everyone by saying oni things ur frens wanna hear or doing things wat ur frens wanna do... it's about being urself and knowing ur rights and making u a person people will recognise...
alot of people are afraid to have tiffs wit their frens thinking tat it wld ruin their friendship.. bt den, it doesnt help by keepin quiet & nt being happy abt it, holding grudges...you're nt helping urself nor ur fren... in fact, u're helping ur fren to become worst...
i'm nt saying one shld fight or quarrel wit their frens... be sensible or tactful or shout (vent) it out.. soft or hard approach... it will turn out good depending how they take it (if they're mature enuff to understand of cos)...
bt it's oways good to trash things out & face the circumstances. i have done that wit my gals and now, we're inseparable.. i mean, it's not we asked for it.. it juz hpns & we voice out our differences... tat's life, isn't it?
it's better to have quality frens den quantity... or maybe it's juz me who tell people straight into their faces if i have to... maybe being tactful as i can be, but at the same time, coming straight to the point...i'm a human afterall..
well, oso, another sad case is, not keeping in touch wen one leaves to another place.
Kwanson Ee, who was working in Shell... we told him we wld contact him for a movie... and till now, we ddnt.. we did sms abt his new job...once after he left but den, no more news.
Gopi, we bid goodbye for good as he left Shell as well and nvr contact since... we oso had some misunderstanding which led us to tis... which in a way is good, for me atleast... in some ways... he wanted to start afresh in near future, but i thought it would be good not to get back as much as we could. I dont wanna have anymore of it... we have since led our own lives...
The WA, whom i was close too, initially, which let us bond cos of some prob, has led us into a grp we all enjoyed. but den, i have drifted away from dem.. wat made me do it, till now, i dont know.
but i believe everything has it's cause,... i believe that 20% of the time, decisions are made by u... and 80% are all destined or fated. u choose the path, the rest, GOD (fate) will take care of it & i willingly accept as it is & try not to mess wit wat God (fate) had made for me cos HE knows wat's best for me...
I have learnt so much in my 21 years of my life and alot more to come & ever ready to face the challenges tat's gonna b thrown at me.. I dont wanna chicken out but there's one fear which i'm unable to overcome - relationships. Though i've haven gotten too deep into it, it still fears me.. Will eleborate on that (maybe not) in another entry...
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