concentrate...

(me and my crazy classmate of mine... no other pic to put up... =P )
no more... it's all about me and my studies... no guy gonna come in between and ruin it all... he can say anything... but it shouldnt affect me... Now that my CA results are out and I did pretty well (wish I wasn't working part-time... could have done better...) so gonna concentrate on my major exams now.... yeah... =)

Confused

To make one jealous? or to ignore and assume that he's not meant for me and lay on another man's arm and see how things go?

women's mind... i wonder sometimes...

Chances...

Is there such thing a thing as giving another chance or shot?

Is it worth going thru it or juz give it all up?

I wonder...

U know, sometimes life or human emotions or behaviour or watever u call it, works pretty strangely?

Well, as much as I keep saying no to that one person... No matter how much I complain abt him... no matter wat excuses I keep giving... No matter wat that person does for u... or how much he expresses his thoughts to u, u juz keep saying NO. Why? Fear. Not being open with my feelings and thoughts... Putting up a brave front... pretentious.. Coward... cheating myself... all these I keep doing... fickle minded? I dont know...

But if he can break thru those barriers u built for no guys to enter,who could change ur mind and perception... he who shows u limitless attn... attention where gals simply melts... what else can a gal ask for?

And why are gals so weak? No matter how independent they can be... how strong they potray themselves to be... but the moment a guy have that magic touch and strike u at the right spot of ur heart, no gals can resist it anymore...

I dont know how to conclude tis... but all i know, love is such a beautiful thing... and it's also fate... Fate determines... the person u least expect cld be the one... and I keep cheating myself... and wen it's time to express, it's nt the right person... or maybe it's the right person but wrong timing...

ONLY TIME WILL TELL... and i hope I will not hurt anyone... damn!

I cooked today!

yes, i cooked today...! I dont cook usually... but my mom wasn't in... and i was hungry... and so i went to the fridge... saw she had left plain rice... i took it out, took out an egg, hot dogs, chilli powder, some vegetable i saw, chilli padi, onion & of cos, ikan billis...

I've always liked the Nasi Goreng in my sch so I tot of whipping up something similar... thus I fried the ikan billis which got burnt... haha! the fire too high... and pluz i was so afraid the oil might splatter onto me... LOL!

Thank God my mom came in on time to help me a bit... telling me how put in the chilli powder, onions etc... and guess wat? aft she help me wash that vegetable i dont knw and placing dem in the wok, she told me i am the 1st to cook KangKong wit rice!!! Arrgghhh!!! why ddnt she tell me earlier?! Gosh! but guess wat? the Nasi Goreng was reali nice! i mean, i was surprised myself! Yummy! Yum Yum Yum!

date? a date? I dont knw wat u call it... LOL!

well, my gr8 fren selvam introduced his close fren pandian to me... i wasnt keen initially but somehow (all thnks to *ahem!* pandian got my number)... i've seen him ard wen he came over to my hse the other time... oh well...

we went on a date on Fri and to be honest, i wasn't impressed or interested... and it was boring... we couldnt tok much and I have to keep coming up with various topics to keep the conversation flowing... i cant really joke ard with him and he cant counter my jokes too...

But I must say, he's a REALLY nice guy... whichever gal marries him, she's the luckiest gal ard... but tat doesnt necessarily means if he's nice u can live wit him... we can be good frens... i like having frens ard...but nt tied down as yet since he's toking abt marriage which i can oni consider aft i graduate and settle wit a job 1st... and he's nt young anymore...! and no guy would wait for a gal for 6 years! those days are over...

anyway, i met him again yday... he's doing his own transport business so he transports kids (autism kids) to sch in a mini bus... i was curious to know wat he does, i volunteered to follow him... it was fun driving ard... but i muz say, it's nt easy driving all day... from 7am to 7pm? i was tired myself by following 1/2 day... or less... after looking at the kids, i miss my kids in SSEHV... been almost 7 mths I last saw the kids... i guess the next kids i cld love are my very own.. LOL! (marry an Ang Mo to have cute kids!! hehehehe!)

Tat's Pandian... We went to Botak Jones for dinner... and this guy like making funny faces and I couldnt take a proper pic of him... Grrrr...

Look at his plate? We shared a plate of Fish & Chips cos the serving there is HUGE!
And look at my plate above? I was tortured to eat so little! BooHooooo!!! so wen u look at Pandian's plate, he took 3/4 of the food and i got less den 1/4 of the food...! LOL! but the last dish we ordered (all thanks to my suggestion) was the cheesefries which nearly knocked us off our seats... it was HUGE!!! we were wondering how we're gonna finish it! and THANK God, we shared the Fish & Chips... LOL! we forced it down our throat as much as possible but we couldnt... Juz den we remembered our dear fren Selvam... cos he's got HUGE appetite and i can bet he could finish the entire plate... LOL! we managed to finish 1/4 of it and the rest, sigh! was a waste...

ur friendly cashier...

I was kinda bored while working yday... well, usually on Sunday late morning, there wont be much customers so I started snapping pic of myself... ur friendly cashier... nothing else to do... LOL! I try to look a bit like a rock star look wit eye liner and punk hairstyle cos there's SO many malays der... ok, mayb i m trying too hard... LOL! oh well, i think it works ya... =P

And tis is how my name is spelt at work... =P well, it left alot of my customers wondering how to pronounce it and wat race am i...

Which is good cos wen the indians come, i pretend i dont understand wat they're saying (cos if i speak tamil, they would laugh) and the malays, some of dem, would speak in malay and i would tell dem i dnt understand... it's kinda fun though... I nvr knew i cld look both... LOL! and wit a name like tat, alot of dem asked me how to pronounce it... oh well...

I enjoy the things some of the customers can do... they will ask the silliest qns... some will irritate u to the max u wish u cld ask them to the shut the mouth up and get lost... some will look SO blur u feel like slapping their faces... some are so nice u can carry on talking to dem...

Of cos, there are some guys who would chat wit me to get to know me... but i try to handle dem professionally... and they wld gt the hint... =P and last week, a guy, a NSF, in uniform, passed me his number.. i couldnt believe i was so shy... LOL! and now, we're toking... i mean, he's really cute and i was so shocked he passed me his number! i nearly fainted! LOL!

Well, i'm nt saying I am Ms Universe that all guy fell for me... tat's bullshit... but den, i guess, a simple smile can brighten up anyone's day... and make someone like u instantly... i think... LOL!

oh well, right now, i am takin a 3 weeks break from work and school to concentrate on my studies fully... gonna miss work... =P

niway, Tis is juz a random post... =)

Weeeee!

lol!

14 signs if u like someone...

While reading online, I found this. Very true, right?

1. YOU LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY
2. WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.
3. YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
4. YOU WALK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU’RE WITH THEM.
5. YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU’RE/THEY’RE AROUND.
6. WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME
7. YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.
8. WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN’T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM/HER.
9. YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS, WHILE THINKING OF THEM
10. THEY’RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.
11. YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT.
12. YOU REALlIZE THAT YOU’RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.
13. YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.
14. WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME…

that music in my media...
love it...
i'm listening alot to love songs...
tamil love songs...
very unlikely of me...
loving it...
i cant take it anymore...

poopol en nenjem...

Poopol Poopol

Poopol Poopol en nenjem...

hmmmmmm...

Not easy being a gal...

so much of restrictions...

i wish I was a guy

I would have told her...

like, right now...

hehehehehehhehe!

Family dinner gathering....

On Friday night, we went for dinner in Bedok Marketplace... the food was fantastic and the desert from Spize was superb!!! the brownie and ice-cream was MUCH MUCH better den the ones in Swensens'. It was a very simple affair and as usual, lotsa laughter... i even teased the cleaner cos he was playing the titanic music on his hp... LOL!

My aunt Melissa... she's so adorable!!!

My Naina (Father)... now u know where my looks came from... ;P (he likes to give weird pose...)

My fav uncle... he's so fun to be wit!!!

And now u know where i get my smile from too? From my mummy!!! =D

My sister... we dont look one bit alike... LOL!

My dad is always busy... sigh!

Ashwin!!! He's SO cute!!! esp wen he smiles! man! priceless!!!

My mom loves scaring all the kids... haiz!

My brother... he never know how to pose... maybe he shld learn from my dad... ;P

My granny!!! LOL! she never liked taking pic... of cos i wont let her go too easily... ;P

hehehe! she cant stand me... really.... she nearly fainted wen i spoke to her in tamil tat night... LOL!

My bro and granny shopping for rice...

Priyanka and me... she's so cute & naughty!

dont think she's innocent! behind those smile is a michievious gal... LOL!

My granny and Priyanka....

another drama queen...

Look at him!!!! SO CUTE!!!!

My dad and ashwin look equally blur... LOL!

Ashwin can pose for pic too! LOL!

back to schoooool..............

ok, as u all know that the infamous me quit her job from Shell on 31st Dec '08. and went back to sch full time... honestly it was tough... i havent studied or touch any books for 2.5yrs... and also, i was leaving my colleagues and Bukom as well... a gr8 place to work at and also gave me some identity... a worthy citizen working... LOL! so drama ah? but really, i felt gr8 working in a MNC co., a good position drawing many times more den a Dip holder outside, a nice huge desk, personal contact number, perks, contributin to CPF, my VERY own source of income... it was a nice feeling... a sense of achievement..

And den, i've decided to make a drastic change to my life which is to quit the job and go back to school full time... like i said, it wasnt an easy decision to make... it took me a year to plan carefully, saving up etc...

Wen sch started, it didnt felt like i was going to sch... my mind and body still couldnt adapt to it.. i felt like i was on long leave trying to run some errand... i wasnt prepared for sch either... i went to sch without any papers and pencilcase... i forgot wat is pencilcase... LOL! i had to borrow some stationeries... looking at my classmates, i tot i wouldnt be able to adapt to it... i felt so left out..

but now... i am the noisest in the class, who crack the lamest of the lamest joke yet everyone could still laugh including the lecturers smetimes... everyday, the lecturers nvr fail to call out my name either to ask me qns or tellin me to keep quiet... and i found a perfect partner to it too... Lau Jin Herng, a M'sian, who travels frm JB every single day... LOL! we can never stop arguing or laughing.. we'll b doing either... ;P of cos, Jin Herng love both my hps and always taking pic...

see that gal der? She's crazy... I mean really... the moment the lesson starts, she will NEVER stop writing... She keeps writing and writing and writing... and she ask the lecturer SO MANY qns... man! she's really crazy... she gets really panicky and man! she's like the joke itself.. LOL! so mean eh?

My blurry lecturer... LOL! he's really nice and has high hopes on me.. Damn! i better not fail..

We do the best... Sleep in class... or listen to songs... but not to the lecture... I can see his mouth moving but cant figure wat he's speaking... LOL!

And Tat guy staring in the following pic is my partner... who would argue or laugh with me... Jin Herng... LOL! and he love taking pic... of EVERYTHING...

the following pic is my other classmates... all studying... but i can never seem to be able to do tat... either i am smsing someone constantly... or talking cock,... i do wat i do best...

And bird nest is my current fav drink... i can drink 2-3 cans in a 3 hr lecture... :p unfortunately, it's nt available everyday... :(

And dont be deceived by all my notes etc on my table... u see the hp and the wire? tat is a clear evidence tat i love smsing during lectures... ;P

and i dont write notes... I write nonsense... either scribbling nonsense like who would fill up the qn mark beside my heart or discussing on the paper with JH why spore is better den Msia besides Ramly burger... LOL!

who would it be? crap... i am always bored in lecture...

oh well, looks like i've adapted well in school with so many funny ppl ard... and trust me, nothing beats going back to school... ;P

should i?

u know... i keep thinking about it over and over again... it can never seem to leave my thoughts... i keep mentioning about how being single rocks and the freedom i'm getting...but at the end of the day, my life isnt as exciting and it's as if i'm missing out something in life... something essential... something divine... something pure...

but is it true love does not exist anymore? the reason why i dont wanna be in a relationship is because it hurts alot... hurts if something hpns... a risk which i dont dare to take...

but wat if i am losing a potential one? a true one... a guy who would accept me for the way I am? but is it really possible to find such guy? every guy i meet doesnt prove me anything... nothing seem worth in dem... there are, i admit, but it doesnt work out between us... or maybe i am not giving both of us a chance? I dont know...

I'm waiting for that special moment where I can confidently show my parents that he's the ONE... the ONE i love and wish to spend my life with... the ONE whom I can turn to... the ONE who I can love... Showing him unconditional love... loving him more and more each day... loving his flaws and accepting one another... who can stand my lame jokes... who can stand my talkativeness, my make-up-less face... and spending time together, a night out with a beautiful view spreading across, the wind blowing gently onto our faces and I bury my face against his chest for comfort and security...

there's so much of desires in me... a dream I've been building up over the years... each night with new dreams... getting more and more beautiful which i've yet to find someone to share it with...

I try to forget about it by brushing it off my mind like a stuborn kid, not letting it control my emotions and feelings... i try to concentrate on my studies and work... it helps... but it doesnt help much... i'm cheating myself... not that i nvr give chance to anyone...but they dont seem to be sincere... as much i am smiling on the outside, i have that burning desire in me which is getting stronger each time which I'm afraid it might juz die wen the moment eventually comes... i try to keep it burning, but i'm losing the energy and the time...

this topic keeps repeating in my blog therefore, i've decided on something... and I hope it will help me... I shall look out for potential ones and give it a chance... i shall wait... no more excuses... :)

but who will accept me? is another qn... the pic is up der... if a guy can accept the way i am in the pic, make-up-less (pathetic i know), let's go on a date... :) ok, tat was crap... but ya... patience is a virtue... :)

dinner with my family...

well, my mom was having this sudden craving for Swensens'... so we called Jurong East, IMM branch and it was packed... the 2nd place we called was somewhere in the west but not too sure... and they had 70 reservation!!! like wat the... den we called Bukit Panjang Plaza and they said they werent much crowd so we head down der... u knw wat? Bukit Panjang has the weirdest rd names... Petir, Jelebu or smething, and the worst was Pending Rd! like u knw... everything is pending... ok nvm... lame...

well, i cldnt eat much.. i dont know why... but it was a great meal... we had so much of sharing session and laughter... i think the entire restaurant might have heard us.. or me.. heheheh!

***My dad loves posing and give all sorts of pose...drama king... juz like his name.. LOL!

Mother and son should never sit together... cos the mom would get teased ALOT... hehehehhehe! poor mom... well i ddnt spare my dad either! My bro, a busy man... LOL!

And it's my Sister's 17th Bday today!!!

It's all about me me & me! lol!

i so hpn to open my image inbox and realised tat there are couple of pics i've nvr uploaded anywhere else... so i tot i should blog it like wat i did last yr as well...well, it's my blog, so i can upload anything... so i tot why not... here u go:

we were taking each other... LOL!

toilet door... yes i know... duh!

my fav Bukom policeman! Handsome Hanaffi... or so he claims... was at Eshyam's wedding... boy! the cutest policeman in Bukom got married... my heart was shattered... no worries, i'm over it totally... *** trying to act cool in Hanaffi's sunglasses... LOL!***

Ooooo... Nice sexy ass... Ke ke ke! they had NO idea... Shameni can be so naughty...

Act only la... ABLB... With me ard, no one can work... we would start... Snapping!!!

***Even my man have to pose... LOL!***

Elaine's prawns.... it's all gone... into our stomach i think... LOL!

this is wat we call, taking a "short break"

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Cindy's 21st Bday chalet... she was waiting for our surprise at a stroke of mn...
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my mom's all glee... LOL! she looks funny here... and look at my bro! gosh!

a shot at vivo with special lighting... a day meant to be forgotten...

Tracy & Demi! Miss dem LOADS LOADS LOADS!!!

***I'm watching u....***

those eye lashes are real and no mascara on... au natural...

1st pic aft i chopped off my hair...

me in a sari!

Hui Hui smsing... and i dont think she knew i snapped tis... =P

my neighbours!

now who is crazy? not me...

yes, life is a gamble... and no, i wont take another card..

my handsome bro in a mess...

the sea... i wanna go to the most beautiful beach in the world with the special one...

nothing is permanent in life... someday, it will be gone...

and i am stuck... should i start seeking for love?

cycling in east coast has it's advantages... i love it der...

a place i came across in ECP while cycling and couldnt stop myself to take tis shot... if i ever have a bf, i wanna bring him here... juz me and him cuddled and embracing beautiful moments together...

uh huh! u better watch out for tis gal... ;P

nocommentsforthis... justbeingvain...

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The innocence...

the innocent smile... love it... kids are wonderful...

My bro holding our cousin, Ashwin Kashmir... a pure thing...

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My farewell lunch in Bukom

Jalil... my so called Father in Bukom... Miss him lotsa!

Serene giving her speech...

I miss the food der!!!

My boss and colleagues... after a meal...

before having a meal... man! i'm hungry now by looking at it... ;P trust me, the food der is fantastic... u cant get anything like it elsewhere... seriously...

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oh well... nthin better thing to do... so this is wat i ended up doing.. there were more pic.. but too lazy la... :p