It's been so long since I blogged... Niway, life not been tat good. Had bad flu, cough, high fever etc... last week & didn't go to work for 3 1/2 days... Tat's so long! When I came back to work, i nearly fainted...So MUCH of work!!! I had to come back on Sat to finish up whatever I had but I still couldn't...
Niway, tat's not the point... The thing is lately, I've not been feeling too good... As in, not physically or mentally.... but Emotionally... U see, i think i am going thru sme kind of crisis... I dont knw wat kinda crisis.. but nvm...
28 January, 2007
16 January, 2007
Religion... Of LOVE?
Ok, i'm suppose to be typing tis on sunday or maybe monday bt i was juz too tired (or lazy) to type anything...
Well, on sunday,we had tis session in temple about knowing Swami (God)... It all comes down to believing in it, having faith & most importantly, to experience it. Experience wat...? faith in wat...? believe in wat..? u may ask.. That is, your life...
Ok, i reali dont wanna sound like sme goody2-shoe but i have to share tis with whoever is interested in tis topic... Most importantly, i am NOT preaching... =P
On Sunday, while i was going back home, I saw my colleague coincidently... Well,since both of us hadnt had our dinner, we went for dinner. Our conversation varied... but one topic kinda striked me in my mind - Religion.
Ok, tis chap i knw is a free-thinker. I am a hard-core believer in Hinduism. =P Something which I m so proud of. Ok, tat's nt the point... Well, we were toking abt Thaipusam, Fire Walking, Pongal etc... Well, to me, all these traditions was created by Humans.
I believe tat God didnt come down and say you shld sacrifice urself,pain etc to show the love of God... My fren gave a good explanations on how these traditions started. For e.g: Why ppl carry kavadi & celeb pongal etc... Let's not eleborate tis point...
Hmmm.... so the topic continued thru our dinner... To me, from the values i learnt, i realised to reach God, you've to help your fellow men. Manava Seva is Madhava Seva - which means, Service to Men is Service to God.
Which is true.. ok, come to think of it regardless u're a free-thinker or otherwise... When you help someone in ANY way, maybe givin water to a thirsty fellow or helping a blind cross the rd, don't u feel good abt urself? You're not oni helping this people... You're helping to make urself a much better person...
U may think u're sacrificing your time & energy to help a complete stranger, den u're wrong... (i dont hve the rights to say tis bt ya... i will),... =P wen u help smeone, u're giving dem joy for making their life simpler in sme ways... which in return u'll get double the joy! 1stly,u're happy smeone is happy cos of u... 2ndly,u did smething so nobel! 3rdly,ur karma will be washed... wat goes round comes round...
Why waste ur time & energy clubbing all night (temporary happiness),wen u can divert all tat energy to do smething more positive & productive (life long happiness)? Hehehe! Nah, ur life, u make the decisions... but tis is my personal opinion... =)
So tis juz part of the conversation... I tot i cld share tis with all of ya... Pls pardon me if anythin i mentioned above cld be insulting or wrong... these are all purely my personal opinion. Hey dude, thanks for ur company on sunday... =)
Hurt Never, Help Ever. =)
Well, on sunday,we had tis session in temple about knowing Swami (God)... It all comes down to believing in it, having faith & most importantly, to experience it. Experience wat...? faith in wat...? believe in wat..? u may ask.. That is, your life...
Ok, i reali dont wanna sound like sme goody2-shoe but i have to share tis with whoever is interested in tis topic... Most importantly, i am NOT preaching... =P
On Sunday, while i was going back home, I saw my colleague coincidently... Well,since both of us hadnt had our dinner, we went for dinner. Our conversation varied... but one topic kinda striked me in my mind - Religion.
Ok, tis chap i knw is a free-thinker. I am a hard-core believer in Hinduism. =P Something which I m so proud of. Ok, tat's nt the point... Well, we were toking abt Thaipusam, Fire Walking, Pongal etc... Well, to me, all these traditions was created by Humans.
I believe tat God didnt come down and say you shld sacrifice urself,pain etc to show the love of God... My fren gave a good explanations on how these traditions started. For e.g: Why ppl carry kavadi & celeb pongal etc... Let's not eleborate tis point...
Hmmm.... so the topic continued thru our dinner... To me, from the values i learnt, i realised to reach God, you've to help your fellow men. Manava Seva is Madhava Seva - which means, Service to Men is Service to God.
Which is true.. ok, come to think of it regardless u're a free-thinker or otherwise... When you help someone in ANY way, maybe givin water to a thirsty fellow or helping a blind cross the rd, don't u feel good abt urself? You're not oni helping this people... You're helping to make urself a much better person...
U may think u're sacrificing your time & energy to help a complete stranger, den u're wrong... (i dont hve the rights to say tis bt ya... i will),... =P wen u help smeone, u're giving dem joy for making their life simpler in sme ways... which in return u'll get double the joy! 1stly,u're happy smeone is happy cos of u... 2ndly,u did smething so nobel! 3rdly,ur karma will be washed... wat goes round comes round...
Why waste ur time & energy clubbing all night (temporary happiness),wen u can divert all tat energy to do smething more positive & productive (life long happiness)? Hehehe! Nah, ur life, u make the decisions... but tis is my personal opinion... =)
So tis juz part of the conversation... I tot i cld share tis with all of ya... Pls pardon me if anythin i mentioned above cld be insulting or wrong... these are all purely my personal opinion. Hey dude, thanks for ur company on sunday... =)
Hurt Never, Help Ever. =)
13 January, 2007
Downpour
Ok, lately, eversince the year had started, my life been as bad as the weather. It's been so dull & sad... I dont knw why bt for no apparent reason, i get very stressed & worked up. I try not to get myself so worked up but at the same, things nvr seem to become better.
Is it me or the surrounding... How long can I blame myself for everything tat hpns? I am losing touch with my frens... I mean, how much can i depend on dem?
Anyway, I am juz being too petty... Or it's juz not a good time for me... I am feeling sick everyday... Every single day... I drag to go to work...I drag to eat...I drag to do work... I drag to go home... I drag to go anywhere... I want to sleep & never to wake up... I wish I cld disappear smewhere...Sme place where's der's no one... Juz me... in sme beautiful paradise... A place full of love...
Emotional downpour... I'm totally drained inside... Nothing... I mean it NOTHING seem to excite or make me smile at all...
Well, i'm saying too much here... I juz hope my life gets better... Swami, it's in your hands.. I surrender to you to guide me.. I had enough oredi... Really... U gotta do smething b4 I do smething else... I'm losing my confidence...
Is it me or the surrounding... How long can I blame myself for everything tat hpns? I am losing touch with my frens... I mean, how much can i depend on dem?
Anyway, I am juz being too petty... Or it's juz not a good time for me... I am feeling sick everyday... Every single day... I drag to go to work...I drag to eat...I drag to do work... I drag to go home... I drag to go anywhere... I want to sleep & never to wake up... I wish I cld disappear smewhere...Sme place where's der's no one... Juz me... in sme beautiful paradise... A place full of love...
Emotional downpour... I'm totally drained inside... Nothing... I mean it NOTHING seem to excite or make me smile at all...
Well, i'm saying too much here... I juz hope my life gets better... Swami, it's in your hands.. I surrender to you to guide me.. I had enough oredi... Really... U gotta do smething b4 I do smething else... I'm losing my confidence...
Dream Guy? Hmmm... I wonder..
Ok, i was in a bhajans & I actuali realised tat guys who are musically inclined, esp those who plays musical instruments are reali interesting... i mean, wen u're bored, he can entertain u! Hehehe! Juz kidding...
Well, since i've oredi touched the topic on guys, i shall state wat i wanna see in my future-to-be...(hehee!):
Well, since i've oredi touched the topic on guys, i shall state wat i wanna see in my future-to-be...(hehee!):
- Tall
- Average looks (not too handsome pls... to much to handle)
- Good education
- Good family background
- Good friends
- Good sense of humor (muz make me laugh.. =P)
- Responsible
- With positive attitude
- Mature
- Trustworthy
- Capable
Ok, i know i have stated so many stuffs... but den, i am not asking so much cos at the end of the day, i wld fall in love with him on a whole... both good & bad... smething which couples have to do - compromise & respect each other... and of course the most essential thing is -TRUST.
Ok, juz to let u knw, this is not sme matrimonial website...
Me not findind for a groom... it juz so hpns i tot abt it.. Hahaha!
09 January, 2007
Changes
Ok, so I was reali upset with someone I love (it's smeone close to me...Hey! me still single & available... Hee!) It was a small thing & was entirely my fault... I juz over-reacted to it...
Anyway, on Sunday, I had a meeting & mentors get-together session... I thought it wld be boring but it wasnt... Well, one qn tat came up - How can you make changes in your life? Hmmm... And the next one - wat do u want to change?
How do you want to make changes in your life? (well, we had a discussion):
Anyway, on Sunday, I had a meeting & mentors get-together session... I thought it wld be boring but it wasnt... Well, one qn tat came up - How can you make changes in your life? Hmmm... And the next one - wat do u want to change?
How do you want to make changes in your life? (well, we had a discussion):
- Identifying the changes u wanna make
- Analysing & make the change
- Maintaining the change
What do you want to change? (On our own):
- To be more committed in the centre & doing my 100% best (or maybe 95%...) =P
- To be more focus on goals set in my life
- Able to handle situations well instead of breaking down often
I have more but I don't wanna write all tat down. Anyway, on a whole, I would want to be someone who can achieve & be successful in my own ways... Smeone worth in this society... Hmmm, i guess i am saying too much here...
So, I hope 2007 will be a splendid year...
(boring topic yaar...)
05 January, 2007
Trust
C'mon! U have to trust me...
I am not a bad gal who drinks, smokes, clubs or have any vices den why are u doing tis to me? Why can't juz let me breathe...
It's juz so suffocating...
It hurts tat I have to listen to all ur nonsense...
Why do u oways suspect me for little thing I do?
C'mon! Let me grow...
How long are u going to hold me like tis?
I juz hate tis man!
Tell me,wat did I do for u not to trust me?
What is tat I do that u have to suspect every movement...
Is it wrong to volunteer?
If all this is not enuff, den wat do u want me to do?
I gt hme str frm work...
den wat the Fark do u want me to do to prove i'm an angel?
Why the fark do u even let me work?
might as well make me quit the job & i shall stay hme locked up...
wont tat be good?
if tis is nt gd enuff, i shall cut all ties in tis world and be under ur nose...
I think tat's a brilliant idea...
really... I dont know wat else u want from me...
I guess my life...
I am not a bad gal who drinks, smokes, clubs or have any vices den why are u doing tis to me? Why can't juz let me breathe...
It's juz so suffocating...
It hurts tat I have to listen to all ur nonsense...
Why do u oways suspect me for little thing I do?
C'mon! Let me grow...
How long are u going to hold me like tis?
I juz hate tis man!
Tell me,wat did I do for u not to trust me?
What is tat I do that u have to suspect every movement...
Is it wrong to volunteer?
If all this is not enuff, den wat do u want me to do?
I gt hme str frm work...
den wat the Fark do u want me to do to prove i'm an angel?
Why the fark do u even let me work?
might as well make me quit the job & i shall stay hme locked up...
wont tat be good?
if tis is nt gd enuff, i shall cut all ties in tis world and be under ur nose...
I think tat's a brilliant idea...
really... I dont know wat else u want from me...
I guess my life...
04 January, 2007
Workless - 4th Jan 07
Today, isn't tat exciting... After yday's 2 1/2 hr walk, my body was aching pretty badly & my stomach hurt a little cos of the damn virus attack... I was limping to the bus-stop & slept in the bus through out (was shacked).
Lunch was great... One of my colleague in Bukom picked me up from my office & drove me down to canteen. I am not suppose to eat anything besides bread & biscuit. But den, since my stomach didnt hurt me tat much, I had chicken rice w/o chilli. Another one more of my fren join me for lunch (tm his last day) & had a good chat.. well, it may seem like a simple gathering but I had fun juz now. Dropped off my fren over at his place, my colleague drove me back to my office... It was reali sweet of him.
Well, I have so much of work to do yet I can't do anything. One of my system is down & I feel so handicapped w/o it. I work mostly with that system so yeah... There's some problem with it. But by tm i shld be able to use it.
Well, I will be meetin Jivi to apply for our basic theory test for class 3... After 2 yrs, i finali gt approval frm the doc tat i am fit for driving... I am so excited abt it! =) Hahaha! well, if u wait for two yrs, u'll understand how it feels...
Lunch was great... One of my colleague in Bukom picked me up from my office & drove me down to canteen. I am not suppose to eat anything besides bread & biscuit. But den, since my stomach didnt hurt me tat much, I had chicken rice w/o chilli. Another one more of my fren join me for lunch (tm his last day) & had a good chat.. well, it may seem like a simple gathering but I had fun juz now. Dropped off my fren over at his place, my colleague drove me back to my office... It was reali sweet of him.
Well, I have so much of work to do yet I can't do anything. One of my system is down & I feel so handicapped w/o it. I work mostly with that system so yeah... There's some problem with it. But by tm i shld be able to use it.
Well, I will be meetin Jivi to apply for our basic theory test for class 3... After 2 yrs, i finali gt approval frm the doc tat i am fit for driving... I am so excited abt it! =) Hahaha! well, if u wait for two yrs, u'll understand how it feels...
03 January, 2007
Health is Wealth
Today, I had a great time... Well, for the 1st time in my 20yrs, I actuali take my New Year resolution seriously...
Like I mentioned earlier, I am suffering frm sme pain. I decided I cant juz sit der & moan in pain so I went for a walk (pre-planned... I didnt cancel it u knw!). I met two of dem and guess what? we walked frm Bt Batok Polyclinic to PIE exit to Bt Batok, further down to the incinerator & den to Jurong East Central, down to Toh Guan Rd come down to Bt Batok. The last bit, we ran and it was reali gd... but i hve no stamina anymore (i nvr did PE for like 3yrs)... I seriously hve to work on that.
This time, we're reali serious with:
- Diet
- Exercise
- Games
- Hiking
Sounds fun ah? Well atleast we'l have a variety so we wont find exercising boring...
Today was reali good... Hopefully we will keep it going & Never to lose hope.
Niway, gtg slp now. Will blog tm.
Nitez!
gal
Like I mentioned earlier, I am suffering frm sme pain. I decided I cant juz sit der & moan in pain so I went for a walk (pre-planned... I didnt cancel it u knw!). I met two of dem and guess what? we walked frm Bt Batok Polyclinic to PIE exit to Bt Batok, further down to the incinerator & den to Jurong East Central, down to Toh Guan Rd come down to Bt Batok. The last bit, we ran and it was reali gd... but i hve no stamina anymore (i nvr did PE for like 3yrs)... I seriously hve to work on that.
This time, we're reali serious with:
- Diet
- Exercise
- Games
- Hiking
Sounds fun ah? Well atleast we'l have a variety so we wont find exercising boring...
Today was reali good... Hopefully we will keep it going & Never to lose hope.
Niway, gtg slp now. Will blog tm.
Nitez!
gal
Virus ATTACK!
Today, after lunch, as usual I had a piece of pineapple. Suddenly, i started perspiring & had terrible stomach cramps at 2pm... I couldn't concentrate on anything at all. It was the worst pain I've ever had in my pass 20yrs...
I quickly called the internal taxi (the island isn't small & gotta call cab to transport us ard). The darn taxi took so long to arrive & the speed limit in Bukom? - 30km/hr. Imagine the pain I was going thru.
The moment I reached the clinic, the attendant told me I can only see the doc at 3pm & it was only 2pm. I can't go back becos it wld mean calling the cab again & again. I decided to stay & pled the attendant to let me see the doc.
Well,bcos the time is specially for those who r der for medical check-up, I have to wait - till 3pm.
I was bored to death. The tv programme sucked big time... then I saw a new chap who joined as a new technologies. I started tokin to him...
Well, after explainin to the doc of all the symptoms (i make sure i never leave out anything), he told me that my intestines has got VIRUS! Gosh! He nearly freaked me out! Well, this is what he told me to void:
- Milk
- Coffee, milo, tea with milk, horlicks
- Soft drinks
- Fruit juice (except for pure apple juice)
- Oily, fried, spicy food
- Chocolates, sweets
- Fruits & raw food
The stuffs I can consume:
- Water
- Black tea with black sugar
- Pure apple juice with no sugar added
- Biscuits
- White bread
Well, I want to lose weight but not this way!!! The pain is KILLING me! The worst pain ever!
Anyway, I hope this darn virus clears asap.
I quickly called the internal taxi (the island isn't small & gotta call cab to transport us ard). The darn taxi took so long to arrive & the speed limit in Bukom? - 30km/hr. Imagine the pain I was going thru.
The moment I reached the clinic, the attendant told me I can only see the doc at 3pm & it was only 2pm. I can't go back becos it wld mean calling the cab again & again. I decided to stay & pled the attendant to let me see the doc.
Well,bcos the time is specially for those who r der for medical check-up, I have to wait - till 3pm.
I was bored to death. The tv programme sucked big time... then I saw a new chap who joined as a new technologies. I started tokin to him...
Well, after explainin to the doc of all the symptoms (i make sure i never leave out anything), he told me that my intestines has got VIRUS! Gosh! He nearly freaked me out! Well, this is what he told me to void:
- Milk
- Coffee, milo, tea with milk, horlicks
- Soft drinks
- Fruit juice (except for pure apple juice)
- Oily, fried, spicy food
- Chocolates, sweets
- Fruits & raw food
The stuffs I can consume:
- Water
- Black tea with black sugar
- Pure apple juice with no sugar added
- Biscuits
- White bread
Well, I want to lose weight but not this way!!! The pain is KILLING me! The worst pain ever!
Anyway, I hope this darn virus clears asap.
First Day at work for 2007
Today, I am back to work after 4 days of long hols... and it's the 1st day of work for 2007... Guess wat? I cant use one of the system... so basically, this means I dont need to do work! LOLx!
Anyway, the year has started... so must my plans for this year:
- Driving
- Weight Management
- Hunt for a better job
- New haircut & colour
- Shop for shoes, clothes etc...
- Make everyone happy
- To love all
- To continue with my volunteer work & to be committed
- To be cheerful at all times
- Find a potentiol life partner (if you notice, tat's not my top priority... LOLx!)
(Have to do some soul searching)
Well, if I can fulfill all of the above (maybe not the last one), I will say I am successful in my own ways. Hee! =P
Anyway, the year has started... so must my plans for this year:
- Driving
- Weight Management
- Hunt for a better job
- New haircut & colour
- Shop for shoes, clothes etc...
- Make everyone happy
- To love all
- To continue with my volunteer work & to be committed
- To be cheerful at all times
- Find a potentiol life partner (if you notice, tat's not my top priority... LOLx!)
(Have to do some soul searching)
Well, if I can fulfill all of the above (maybe not the last one), I will say I am successful in my own ways. Hee! =P
01 January, 2007
New Year Resolution
Finally, I got myself a blog... I never thought of having one but lately there's been so many things happening in my life so I thought I shld blog so that my head will not be clouded with so many thoughts...
My New Year resolution for 2007? To blog.
My New Year resolution for 2007? To blog.
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