my life has become so much like a routine... same thing every day... same problem everyday....
Every night the only worry I have in my mind is : MONEY.

I have to get loan for my school by end tis month or I may not be able to continue my studies and I have no more money to last till end tis month (it's only 6th today). Phone bills not paid and I've got a reminder letter. It's been 3 yrs I've last asked my parents for money and planning not to do so... I have to make do wit watever I have... Which is, work.

I work so I won't feel the hunger, the pain in my heart, mind, pocket and my body. I just spent $30 on my medical... I had freaking high fever and tot i was going to die tat night... and wat more... Skipping my physiotheraphy and check up wit my specialist cos I have no more money. I've stopped meeting my frens no where outside bt batok cos I cant afford to spend a cent more if possible. I haven't booked my TP cos der's insufficient funds.

Thank God I came across my $40 NTUC vouchers in my drawers which can last till Sept 08. It can help me for awhile... But den, wen I saw my colleague struggling to raise 5 kids on her own, I gave her $20 voucher to help her ease some pain. and now i'm left with $20 which i'm yet to use.

Every waking moment I can only think of money, school fees, bills & loan. No peace of mind... sometimes i wish i cld stay in hospital for a week just to get away from all these shit issues off my mind for awhile and lay der and get my food served.

Seriously, monetary issues are the worst thing to face in life... I wish I didn't quit my job in Shell... i'm feeling really helpless and clueless...

I'm not posting this to gain sympathy or to show that I am leading a hard life PLEASE pity me... Fuck off... this is my blog and choose to type whatever I want... call me arrogant, egoistic & attn seeking bitch... I dont give a fuck... Cos I don't owe anyone anything in my life besides my parents... oh well, my tag board will not be placed back anymore... **getting vulgar these days... who to pls these days? none... I live for myself***