too many issues to handle... monetary issues mainly... it's so hard to maintain monthly... unable to shop freely & save easily... now I have to calculate every single cent & monitor every expenses i make...

On top of all these, I had shortage of $50 in my register... despite the fact that I count the money umpteenth times... seriously, I couldnt concentrate after tat cos I started to make rapid checklist in my mind on the expenses tat need to be made... top up cash card, phone bills, driving test, etc etc etc... i kept drawing up the list in my mind... it sucks... so pressurising...

finally, it occured to me... since i've got two mobile phones & lines, I gave one up to my dad... a number i kept for almost a decade, gone. I sold my SE W960i at $390 which I bought at $900 in Feb & finally, I sold my PSP slim at $140. With tat money, I settled my phone bill & the rest I deposit it, top up my cash card & keeping it till end of the month...

Man! i'm living off worst den a poor man! sometimes I wonder why did I have to quit my job in Shell & go back to sch? my savings depleted & soon I was left with nthin aft paying my sch fees...

Now, my other worry is the study loan... which needs to be settled by next week...

i brought tis upon myself but I still ask, why me?

***me not here to gain sympathy but to share my journey of joys & sorrows...***